Fri, 17 September 2010 01:44:05 ET
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Expressing her regret over their fall out following Heidi's dramatic surgery, Darlene Egelhoff writes in her blog she has 'endless, sleepless nights' worrying about her reality TV star daughter.
's mother hasn't spoken to her in six months. Darlene Egelhoff says she has "endless, sleepless nights" worrying about her reality TV star daughter, who turned 24 on Wednesday, September 15, for over six months, after they fell out about Heidi's undergoing dramatic surgery to enhance her face and body.
"Heidi hasn't spoken to me in six months most likely because in her mind I betrayed and hurt her and likely because she's assuming the worst of me," she wrote on her blog. "I handled her situation poorly and regretfully."
"Knowing in my heart I said what I thought might have the best chance of getting through to her, to MAKE her know that her precious, authentic self was the most beautiful of all God's creations, doesn't help my endless, sleepless nights or my ruminating thoughts of how I should have done things differently."
Heidi, who this week Spencer Pratt
following a move to the island of Costa Rica, underwent ten cosmetic procedures in a single day including brow lifts, ear-pinnings and a chin reduction earlier this summer and has previously confessed to being "addicted" to plastic surgery.
Darlene said that when Heidi revealed her new body to her on a TV show it was one of the "worst experiences" of her life, but she now wants to reconcile with her daughter. She added, "God knows my motives were from the heart and out of desperation to save her from what I felt was a destructive, dangerous path being influenced by people who were profiting and benefiting from her."
"I have no way of contacting her. And yes, admittedly I do hope she reads this and knows how deeply and achingly I love and miss her and she'll call me."
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